Recent Rambles

A List of Ten Novels I want to Read

I’m a reader and always have been. I started reading Dickens when I was 11 and from then on he became one of my favorite authors. I’m ashamed to admit though that even I meant to continue reading along these lines I got pretty distracted.

I wound up satisfying my thirst for reading on Romances, Harry potter, Science Fiction, Harry potter and Romances. In that order. Of course my teachers in school often introduced us to Shakespeare, Orwell, Woolf, and of course the lovely Bronte sisters, but it never felt like it was enough. I always felt as though somehow I was behind.

To this day I still have that feeling and maybe it will never go away, cause you know the writing thing. I wholeheartedly believe in order for you to be a great writer you should always continue to read and expand the little knowledge you do have. I am also genuinely curious about other authors and what they are writing about.

So to that extent I have made a list of all novels I would like to read before the end of 2018. Well maybe not all, but enough that it will keep me busy outside of my already taxing school, work and child-raising commitments. Ha!

  1. Catch-22 by Joseph Heller
  2. Brave new world by Aldous Huxley
  3. The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandre Dumas
  4. Ulysses by James Joyce
  5. Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov
  6. War and Peace  by Leo Tolstoy
  7. Rebecca by Daphne du Maurier
  8. Madame Bovary by Gustave Flaubert
  9. Persuasion by Jane Austen
  10. The Way We Live Now by Anthony Trollop

After I read them I will write a post reviewing them. Not in any particular order so if you do want to read them with me just follow me on twitter and I will let you know when I start! b82bb280b9ba3c646dfd5ea03eacc40d--funny-reading-memes-book-memes-funny


30 Days of Green Smoothies

I was recently diagnosed with osteoarthritis and I have decided to use this as the push I needed to change some eating habits of mine.  I was already phasing certain foods out of my diet and was contemplating a few drastic changes. So, I decided that I couldn’t focus on just the weight loss (although let me be frank it is still a big motivator.) I did some research and when I say research I mean I googled some things, read some reviews of cookbooks, checked them out in Barnes and Nobles to make sure they were what I needed and viola! I have a new diet plan!

I have chosen three cookbooks to follow. I will tell you the names as I start the plans in each book. If you haven’t gathered from the title of my post the first one is a green smoothie plan. I am lacking in quite a few necessary leafy things in my diet and I decided the best way move into healthy eating is by increasing the amount of fruits and vegetables in my diet. The best way to do this for me? Drinking it. So that is what I am going to do!

I am following the recipes and format found in JJ smith’s book “Green Smoothies for Life”. In the book she outlines a simple meal plan where you have 2 green smoothies and a hot meal everyday. Then at the end of the week you get to have a special treat which she gives you recipes for. If you get peckish there is a list of snacks that you can eat as well. She does tell you not to worry about calories, but I’m going to be honest with you, that’s not going to work for me.

I’ve already calculated how many calories each smoothie and dinner contains and have added my snacks accordingly… The goal for me at least is to eat at least 6 times.

I’m super excited about this and had originally planned to start today, but I wasn’t able to go grocery shopping in time so I will start tomorrow! Whoo hoo! I’m so excited!! I will try to post my progress and what the smoothies look like. Below you will find the list of acceptable snacks that I am allowed to have while doing this! My choice of drink will be water, Apple Cider Vinegar detox water, herbal and green tea. Let’s hope this goes amazingly!


  1. Apples
  2. Raw veggies (Celery, Carrots, Cucumbers, Broccoli
  3. raw or unsalted nuts and seeds (I’m going to be honest I hate raw or unsalted nuts and I am sticking to the ones I like…salted ^_^)
  4. Hard- boiled eggs
  5. popcorn, lightly salted
  6. Kale chips (Hate this so it is definitely NOT going into my rotation of snacks
  7. Protein bars (nondairy) Nature valley was on sale so that’s what I got
  8. hummus
  9. unsweetened peanut butter (My daughter is allergic to peanuts and so we are using Almond butter. Did you know the classic ones have less sugar than peanut butter?)

Shades of brown

I like to write about mixed race couples in romances. Mostly black and white. Probably, because I enjoy being in those kinds of relationships. I also enjoy seeing them in the streets and I would love to see more of them in media.

The point of this post though isn’t to wax on about my love for mixed race romance. It’s about my discovery of the different shades of brown. I’m not one to brag, but I do know A LOT of shades of brown, but I was a little taken aback when I googled the color and it came back with so many variations. Of course I became overly excited and had to stop writing my description scene and write this post.

I am going to list the ones that stuck out the most to me. These are the ones I am sure I will use at some point in my writing. If not in this story then in the next. It’s actually got me to thinking that I should Google every color and write a post. I would call it shadysunday. Get it? whatever, It’s OK if you don’t, I never said I was great at titles. As a matter of fact that is actually a great weakness of mine. Anyway let’s get started!

Shades of brown

  1. Cafe noir
  2. Ochre
  3. Burnt umber
  4. Chocolate
  5. Beaver
  6. Bronze
  7. Sepia
  8. Russet
  9. Sunray
  10. Coffee
  11. Golden brown
  12. Almond
  13. Windsor tan 2
  14. Burlywood
  15. Seal brown
  16. Dark brown
  17. Raw umber
  18. Copper
  19. Chamoisee
  20. Bole
  21. Redwood
  22. Mahogany
  23. Cinnamon
  24. French puce
  25. Tawny
  26. Caramel
  27. Hickory
  28. Pecan
  29. Copper penny
  30. Deep amber

And an honorable mention goes to burnt and raw sienna. Seriously the next time you are stuck trying to figure out another way to say a color just google it. There will be enough new colors there that you will have no choice, but to write. haha.

Sucking at life, but not really..

You know what I’m talking about right? The feeling that nothing is right, but you really don’t have anything to complain about? I’m talking about the fact that day in and day out you are killing it at adulting, but something is wrong. 
Yeah, you have student loan and credit card debt, but your credit score is not in the Low 500’s anymore. Heck, you may have even reached the low 700’s at this point. You’ve busted your ass at school and graduated (finally) and landed that job that pays you a decent wage. – And when I say decent, I mean your company really appreciates the work you’re doing and they aren’t trying to rape you from behind with lowblow salaries.- You can afford that apartment in NYC that you always dreamed of living in AND you have enough to eat organic shit. *GASP*

You’ve come in to your own and when you talk to others who complain about millenials you flare up in righteous defense because hey, you’re a Millenial and you got your shit together…

Except, you’re still feeling like you don’t. You no longer think that being part of the work force is what you want. You no longer care about the apartment, salary, and organic food. You no longer care that you have become a productive member of society, because let’s be real, society has failed you far more often than you have failed it.

There’s a small voice inside of you urging you to let go of your fears. Let go of the invisible roadblocks around you. You want to travel. You want to fall in love with different cultures and people. You want to live a life full of opportunities that force your imagination and life force to grow. When belle from beauty and the beast sings “I want more than this provincial life!” you are wholeheartedly in agreement with her.

Yet, you can’t just stop living the right way. You can’t just give up your good job with health insurance, great pay and benefits. You can’t just let go of the apartment in NYC.  (cause God knows how down right hard it is too find great ones here in the location you want and that won’t break your bank account.) And seriously, you just started eating the right way!

So deep down inside, you know that even though you are successful, you are truly failing. You are failing to choose your voice over others. Yet again, you’ve taken the advice and wisdom of others suffering the same way. Instead of listening to the little voice begging to be heard, you suffocate it with a ruthfullness that scars you.

You continue to suck at life, while well, not sucking. I for one though am tired of it. I am so tired of it, that I am convinced that I have to make moves towards what I really want. I have to go towards what makes me thrive and become more human than I’ve ever been. I am over being a coward with my real dreams…

Are you?

Healthy Eating Related Musings

I often find myself trying new ways to keep myself interested in a “Lifestyle change” as people are starting to call it. (We all know that this means diet right?) I am one of those eaters that have a lot of “rules” when it comes to what I will stick to with no complaints. Most importantly, I hate anything that calls for lowfat or nonfat foods. I immediately write off any nutritionist that suggest I eat those foods. I’m not a fan and never will be.

If you want to know what kind of dieter I am (Or lifestyle changer lol) here are the things that I need. It’s actually one of the reasons why I have such difficulty in sticking with anything.

I like to eat the same thing, BUT not everyday.

I need variety, BUT nothing that is too out there.

I do not like nonfat or lowfat foods, but I don’t like eating calorie dense foods.

I love to cook, BUT nothing that will take up most of my time.

I love to batch cook, BUT hate eating anything over 2 days old.

I need organization, BUT also wiggle room to have substitutions.

As you can see, I am one of those people. You know the kind. The ones that are annoying as heck when it comes to food choices. lol, but I think I have come up with a real solution cause I need to lose more weight and I am tired of not taking my health seriously.

I used to be a vegan(this is relevant I swear) and during that time I felt great and shed over thirty pounds without really noticing. Being a vegan is hard though and I will Never, Ever, Ever do it again. However, I did learn some very valuable things about what kind of eater I am. Most of the Items above I learned during my year as a vegan. Go figure. lol.

I do know that I am ready to cut dairy out of my diet (except egg whites and cheese (cause let’s be real I can’t live without cheese, but I will cut it down) ) and meat (except seafood). Which means that I am ready to embrace that Pescatarian lifestyle! Whoo Hoo! This obviously takes some planning, but I think it is exactly what I am looking for in a diet. It’s well rounded and leaves me plenty of options to choose from, while remaining pretty consistent in what I can or cannot eat.


Every so often I will post a blog with my current eats. I think mostly on Fridays and I will call it Food Plan Fridays! Haha. One of the reasons why I am doing this is because I’ve been finding it pretty difficult to find information out there, but that’s more my fault than anything. I still want to make it a little easier for those who are also considering this switch and it will help me find things that I am looking for. I do want to stress though that I am NOT turning this into a food blog.

Another reason I am doing this is because I deleted my pinterest board that had been dedicated to being vegan. I didn’t back it up by blogging (Mainly due to the fact that I didn’t really blog then) and I want to have a log this time. Honestly, I should not have deleted my pinterest board that I had created. Ah well. You live and learn. I can’t wait to start this!


The Bane of My Existence

There’s this thing that my daughter wanted. It’s called an LOL DOLL. She’s been asking for this thing since last year and let me tell you, I am very annoyed with MGA entertainment. 😑

The picture above is an image of the unopened LOL doll that I was finally able to get my hands on. You see, everytime I went online to find the thing it would say: available in stores only. Fine. I can dig it. Companies are trying to get people back into their storefronts. They’re not spending money on overhead so we can all go binge shopping online at 3am in the morning right? Plus, eBay was kidding itself with those prices. So, in the store I went.

The problem is, is that when I got to the store and it wasn’t available there either, it made me feel like throwing a tantrum…but I didn’t. You know why? Cause I’m an adult and we can’t throw tantrums…right? Sigh. 

Anyways. So guess who asked for something and didn’t get it? My kid. Which I’m not too upset about cause I figured it builds character. Teaches her a lesson that sometimes you can’t get everything you ask for. I was also pretty sure that like all the other toys, games and puzzles this would too be forgotten soon.

Except that it wasn’t. When Christmas rolled around and it was time for her to make her list there it was. I made her take it off. No way, was I going to try to find something that was hard to find during an off season, during Christmas. Absolutely not. Oh she was unhappy, but I made the right decision you know why? 

Cause it was sold out! So, parent for the win LOL DOLL! Did she stop asking for it? Short answer: No. Long answer: Noooooooooooooooooo. No she did not. It has been a long year. And it just started. 😑

So we tried again. For her birthday and this time we were successful! We found them on toys r us. For $10 a pop, but there is a caveat you can only buy two. TWO! Not a problem. Except, there are over 45 of these things to collect and this momma is giving up at two. Also at 10 bucks a pop, rainbows and butterflies better fall out when she unwraps them. 😒

Sigh. Then I think about how all of this started and realize, that youtube started this. My daughter has 3 t.v days. Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Really only Friday and Sunday cause we try to go out all day on Saturday. Anyway, that includes electronics. So she sometimes will go on the computer and find games to play on her t.v days.

And sometimes, she wants to watch these videos of grown women playing with new toys. That’s where she found out about the LOL DOLLS…ever since then, those grown women are banned from my house. BANNED. Lol. I wish I was kidding. I really don’t want another LOL DOLL situation on my hands. And that’s why they are the bane of my existence. 

Have you ever?

Have you ever just felt tired of being tired?

Have you ever wanted to break down and cry, but don’t cause it’s not worth it?

Have you ever questioned every decision you have ever made?

Have you ever wondered what you would be like if you had different parents?

Have you ever walked around this earth with the realization you are an adult orphan?

Have you ever just wished you could eat a meal without worrying about money?

Have you ever thought you were better than someone?

Have you ever felt like someone thought they were better than you?

Have you ever wished you were a completely different person?