The rhetoric in today’s world is that you have to be strong. You have to keep going because in the end it is all up to you. If at first you don’t succeed try again.
Than the anecdotes start. You know the ones. So and so went through something similar. They had a hard life and was able to do it. You have to be strong just like them. Stronger even.
Why? What is our obsession with that word? Not everyone can be stronger. Who am I supposed to be stronger than exactly? What you ask of me is hard enough. I am unable to pull myself out of this darkness that envelopes me. I’ve been trying for 14 years. FOURTEEN f**ing Years. When can I say enough is enough?
When can I say that I am tired. That I want to give up? When can I say that the life that I am leading is going nowhere fast and it isn’t from a lack of effort.
The thing is you can’t. You have to be stronger than that. You have to take life and shove it right back into the light. You have to be stronger than LIFE. God help me if I am wrong but life is one of the biggest downers that I have had the displeasure of being part of.
Yet, it is also one of the most beautiful, awe- inspiring things that I have ever witnessed. I am not always glad that I have to be stronger than it. I don’t always have the energy to possess it the way it needs to be possessed to truly get the best out of it, but it is still worth it.
Worth it to make sure that at the end of this road, you can at least say that you put up a fight and won most of the time.